9 February 2012 12.44am

I want to get home,with you at the living room. Reading comic. Sitting on the couch we both picked out from the store. Welcome me back with open arms...Then we'll kiss each other slightly on the cheek. You'll ask me ''Are you hungry or tired?'' And i'll say no and just lie on your shoulder.. Then you'll switch on the tv,and we'll watch whatever there is on. We'll talk about our day. We'll laugh and you'll ask me to go shower.. While i am showering,you'll prepare something for me to eat. Eventhough you are tired as well. You'll make us both a cup of nescafe. And you'll watch as i eat. We'll be arguing about what movie to watch after i finish eating. You'll be saying you want to watch Kamen Rider. And i'll be saying i want to watch some horror movie that you hate the most. And you'll brush me off and we ended up with Kamen Rider. HAHA. I'll make some instant popcorn in the microwave & you open the DVD. We'll make ourself comfy on the couch. And you'll be watching seriously. While i'll be falling asleep in the process which is what i always do. HAHA. You'll wake me up at the end of the movie. We'll brush our teeth together. You'll be teaching me how to brush properly like how you always do.. We'll walk to bed together... And as you tuck me in,you'll kiss my forehead and whisper goodnight. I'll fall asleep quickly in your arms listening to your heartbeat... You'll only go to sleep as soon as you soon as you see that im asleep. As i'll be snoring due to my sensitive nose. You don't seem to mind.. Night pass.. And as the sunlight shines thru the half opened window,i'll wake up first like always.. And i'll wake you up.. You'll be lazy-ing.. Hugging me to sleep again.. And make me all sleepy and we'll both sleep again like always..And we'll wake up when we feel hungry.. HAHA. Like always.. And you always ask me to shower first. While you catch a few minute of nap.. And as you shower,i'll make coffee and breakfast at the kitchen. You'll come down all clean and fresh.. Asking what to eat.. And i'll say ''Cook yourself la!'' And you'll say ''Cheh,you already cooked..'' And make faces.. But help me cook in the progress. Like always. HAHA. All these fantasies,memories.. Runs thru my head.. Make it stop.. I can't bear it.. Make it stop....They are how i wish my future life will be. With my man waiting for me as i come home from night shift. How relaxing it is.. How i wish sooo. How i just wished for it to be real.. Life would be perfect. Yea. It will be the most perfect life ever.. Just the two of us. No other.. Just us..

27 January 2012 1.08pm

Reality check.

I seriously don't know what am i doing now.

Had a long conversation with dearest Uncle during CNY.

Discovered a lot of ugly truth.

Thought this year would be different. Maybe slightly happier.

But as we grow up,we will get to know a lot of things.

Things we wish we didn't know.

But we have to know.

And it hurts.

How am i suppose to act to all those things that happened and to all those things i got to know?

I don't know.

I guess i just need some time to think by myself.

Someone somewhere somehow left me hanging alone.

ILOVEDYOU.

Thats all i can say.

14 January 2012 11.06pm

The song will do the talking.

14 Oct 2011 9.31pm

Was feeling very tired today. Back to A&E after 3 days at ICU. Im atcually feeling kinda good today. Ate too much just now. Stomach is kinda bloated now :DD I eat when i want to and whenever i want to :D Then i get fat and complain. Every girl is like that :DD And im super loving the smell of my hair now. I cant stop smelling my own hair :DD I strongly recommend this. The Johnson Baby Shampoo!! It makes my hair so smooth and my hair is falling a hell lot before. Especially after i wash my hair. The floor will be full of my hair after drying my hair. But after using it,i have less hair falling on the floor :)) And my hair smell oh-so-good :PP Why i use this shampoo when it is for babies? Well,it works so well on babies. Then why not on us? Besides,it makes your skin smooth and also smells good. I was at the Obstetric Ward for a month. And everyday,i bathe newborns. And everyday,i use Johnson's to bathe the babies. After 2 weeks,i realize my hand is getting smoother and not so dry. Using too much alchohol wash makes my hand dry :( So i've decided to buy a bottle and try it out. And tadaaaa~!! Its so much more better that all the previous shampoo's i used. Okay. Whatever. Conclusion is,im loving the smell of my hair now!! :DD

11.11.11 11.11pm

Today's date is special but nothing special about the day. Feeling so freaking betrayed and stupid. Maybe my feelings doesn't really matter to you. Whatever. This will be the last you'll see me smiling :) Others will be fake ones. So... Enjoy this last picture of me :P Chiao~