im doomed!

Biology!Physics!Chemistry!Its all so hard!Why are all the question so unexpected?I dont even know what the ques is trying to say!I might even fail!Oh My Buddha!I have to be a nusre!I cant dissappoint my parents anymore!But i hav put all the effort i could to study and get good grades!But now,im afraid that i might not get a C6!Shyt!If i reali fail any subjects,i might even commit suicide.I cant bear to see to see my parents sad!I dont know how to face them.Buddha!Please bless me.I cant only hope for miracle to happen now.If it doenst happen,i'll give up my life or make up by doing something else.I'll do whatever my parents says.I really really really cant bear to see the sad faces on my parents face.I have already done so many things which is enough for them have a heart attack.Phone bills,lost a brand new handphone twice in 3 years,specs.my ugly past,my sometimes very mean attitude and so much more.I hurt my parents and family so many times.I admit im not the kind of person who will say out my feelings and express out.Even if im unhappy,i wont show it.I wanna be the happy-go-lucky type of girl in front of my family and friends.Even if i have to hide away my feelings,i would rather to play happily with them then to cry in front of them and watch their face turn into a sad face instead of a haapy face.I dont wanna see a sad face.I wanna help people and bring joy to them.Not bring sadness to them.Buddha,please help me make my dreams come true.Give me a MIRACLE!Please!

I have my Right!

Life is not just about love!Its not just about having a girlfriend or a boyfriend!You dont need another person to make sure your life is perfect!
You dont need another burden to feed!You can live by yourself!Why want another problem to handle when you already have so many problem in your life!Its killing yourself!And its killing me!Just because of you want it doesnt makes me have to accept it!I dont wanna hurt anyone but i have the right to choose my own path!Its useless,wasting time,wasting a lot of things!Find what you wanna do!Stop day-dreaming!Its irritating!Its disgusting!Its annoying!Just stop all the rubbish!