6 Oct 2011 5.39am

Waking up in the middle of the night. Nightmares everynight. Feeling so terrified. Feeling so unsafe. Feeling so.. Alone. Who to talk to? No one but myself. I guess I've learned the ugly truth. The hard way. Avoiding is not a way. Been doing it for a long time and now its time for me to wake up and realize. I have to be strong. For myself and my love ones. Avoiding only piles up all the disappointments and heart breakings together. And when I finally realize that it's not a solution. It all hit me like a tsunami. It hurts so bad I feel like I could die. HAHA. Silly me. Don't even know what to think. Silly me.. Silly me!!!